I JUST NEED TO START OVER

If you feel like you're missing something out there, then why don't you go find it?

I had tons of new posts ideas, but I didn't feel like writing them or posting them. Why? Because I'll be doing it just to do it. I had a lot of mixed emotions these past few days, and it kinda hit me hard. I felt really confused about everything. Myself, people and life in general.

SAVE YOURSELF

Life is strange, and life is hard. Life is even harder when you force yourself to be something else, or when you act someone else. Why? To please people? You're not even living your life anymore. You're wasting it. You're wasting your personal potential of being something GREAT. You don't need the approval of others to allow yourself to be happy. To be in peace. To do the things you like. To do the things you believe in.

 

 

Life is short, therefor don't waste it on people who don't deserve your company, or who tear you down. They just wanna feel better about themselves.

Someday you will be old, and wishing to have back this energy you had when you were younger to do great thigns. WHY?!!! Why didn't you change your life, when you had enough energy to DO IT!!!!

YOU'RE NOT SATISFIED WITH YOUR LIFE?!!! CHANGE IT!! 

YOU DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, OR CHANGE?!! START SOMEWHERE!!! 

We're in this together. Love yourself. Forgive yourself for your mistakes. Be your Number One supporter. Have fun.

PEACE

Peace...Peace.........Peace...............Peace of minde.....Peace with myself......Peace with....life.

That's what I'm looking for. But? Do you actually try to understand yourself? Your needs? Your feelings? like...Do you take the time to ask yourself what's going on? like your asking someone "why you seem so tired today?" "You're okay?". Be attentive  to your soul.

I need to take a break from social medias for a while. I need to concentrate more on myself and my needs. I need to reconnect. I need to restet myself as would Jerome Jarre say.

 

 HEALTH

Body health = Mental health. 

I think its time to give my body what it needs to receive. Eating more healthier. Doing a physical activity (at home for now lol).

Being healthy doesn't mean being skinny. Love your body and protect it. Don't be harsh on yourself and say Al'hamdulillah. Don't believe in society's perfect body image. Our society is pretty screwed.

I'm trying I guess to get out of my comfort zone. Pick up new habits. Loose bad habits. Grow. Start somewhere. Enjoy the journey. Don't put too much pressure, just learn you know.

Useless Updates #1

Waw guys! That's been a long time yo. I was taken by all of my exams and internship interviews...and I'm sooo ready for summer. I can't wait for spring tho!!
For today's post, I wanted to join Areeba from I Have A Messy Bun and give you a Useless Update :) I love reading her "Useless Updates" (and the whole blog), cause in fact it's really fun (go check them out!). So there you go.

 I'm currently watching a korean drama called "Marriage, not dating" on Viki and it's really good. I was looking for a new show to watch and I couldn't find something interesting and as good as the last korean drama," The heirs", I watched. The main girl is super funny, and I can't wait to see what will happen to these two!!! 

I can't stop listening to Geronimo by Sheppard. This song is Da Bomb!!

I watched "The Equalizer" this week, and it was soo good! Denzel Washington is a legend tho. If you like action/thriller movies this one is for you. I don't usally watch this kind of movies, but "The Equalizer" is an exception. There's also Chloe Mortez on it :) She's one of my favorite actress.

I can't wait to watch this movie!! It's coming this week and I'm so excited. This is the kind of thing that makes me hold out until summer.

This weekend!! DisneyLand!! Can't Wait!!

Hope you enjoyed reading this post!! Here's above a link to other useless updates of cool bloggers

#OOTD : Black and white baby!

How are you today my lovely readers? Me? Al'hamdulillah today is a great day. I have exams next week and I didn't open a single book yet, but.....No stress! I got this! lol

So today's post is a bit different and I'm really excited about the outfit and the pictures I took for it. I bought new close lately and did a mix with some oldies to have a satisfying outfit. It's basicaly a black and white + (grey) outfit, (and Black is my new obsession right now!!!), with a colorful hijab. The hijab, the black bag and the grey shirt are the new ones. I bought them at Primark (cause' primark is bae), and I have to say that I fell in LOVE with the shirt. As you can see it's longer on both sides and its material is perfect for spring/summer. And The black bag? Can we take a moment please? I looove it!!

So I felt like modeling today lol, and wanted to share with you this outfit. My mom saw me all dressed up and asked where I was going :) "No mommy I just wanna take some pictures love you".

Hope you guys enjoyed reading this post as much as I enjoyed doing it :) See you next my loves Bye bye!!

Crush of the month : Yuna

link Tumblr

This is Yuna, a very talented malaysian singer and businesswoman. I don't exactly remember how I discovered this girl this summer, but I was so happy and excited that I did. (I think I read a blog post about her on Alli simpson's blog.) I'm in love with her voice, with her style and with her personnality. First I wasn't really into her music's style, but then her song's lyrics are so poetic and true that you can't help but love it. I think she is a role modele in the way she stays true to herself, to her culture and to her religion, and that's not really easy in the western music industry. Her music is original and so is her fashion style, and she keep it simple and artistic at the same time. If there's a social media that can describe her, Tumblr suits her best.

Here are some of my favorite songs of Yuna, so go check them out and tell me what you think :p :

Live your life

Mermaid

I wanna go

Mountains

Come as you are

She Rocks Dat Turban yo

These following pictures are not mine. Just found on google

Hope you guys enjoyed this post, and tell me if you already new about this girl before or you just discovered her :) I would like to know!! Good night loves xx

Poem || Angels wings

From tumblr

Here's a poem I wrote today. I tried to put words on the toughts, emotions and feelings I'm having at the moment. That's how I try to understand my own self. It's weird because I tell myself how I feel, but with words, like I'm explaining to someone. It feels good you know, to stay true to your feelings, and facing them. Never reject what your feeling, even when you don't know why you feel that way or if you don't know the reason yet. You will figure things out, just be patient with yourself.

Don't worry, I'm trying to get out of this open prison.

Hope you guys enjoyed reading this post and this poem :) Tomorow I go back to school and....I don't wanna even talk about it lol. Take care and have a nice week.

My Skincare Routine

Hey guys!! How are you?

Are you wondering why I've been very active on my blog and my Instagram account lately? Well if you do then it's because I have a week of holidays. Yes I do have homeworks and a lot of stuff to do, but I can't stay away from you! ;) ;) ;)

So in this post I will talk about my skincare routine, but more like my face skincare routine. Here's the products I use daily to take care of my skin.

1. Nivea cream: My mom is a big fan of this one and I became one too. I use this one mostly in the mornings or after I took a shower because my skin face becomes very dry after I wash it. So it's very helpful to keep it hydrated throughout the day.

2. Rose Water: This one is one of my favorite. I need to buy a new one, cause' the one in the picture is 

 already finished. Don't let me fool you haha. I use Rose Water mostly in the mornings too with a cotton pad. I keep it last, after I washed my face to have a fresh scent of rose that lasts the whole day. It smells so goooood!

3. Bioderma Micellar Water: Is one of the best products I ever bought. I use it before I go to sleep after a long day outside to clean my skin from the polluted air. You don't need to wash your face after using it, so what I do is wash my face first. It's good for any type of skin, and it gives you a soft skin after you use it. It also dries my pimples so that's a big plus.

4. Yves Rocher Hands cream: This one is from Yves Rocher. Yves Rocher is a french brand wich is specialized in the botanical beauty products. I don't know if we can find it in other countries so let me know if you know it.

5. Diadermine Cleansing Strips: I searched a lot to find satisfying cleansing strips. This one is a bit expensive, but I think it's worth it. It helps cleaning the pores from the blackheads (the small ones) and it leaves a soft skin.

6. Lip balm: I got this one from Yves Rocher and I can't live without it!! My lips are always dry, and I use it basically every single day. It's shea scent and it smells so good!

Do you have a "must have" product for your skincare routine? or Do you use any of these above? Let me know!!

Hope you enjoyed this post guys :) Take care xoxo.

.

A day with me || My second interview

Salam guys!! How you're doing?

So today was a big day for me :) I had my second interview for my internship and my first interview where I went with my hair covered. And I was soo excited about the last fact!! As a muslim hijabi girl, it is a big deal for me, because it is a part of my identity, it is who I am and I always wanna be sure that I'm honest with myself and with people.

I tried  for the first time the turban and the result was pretty good I guess. I prayed during the whole path that it won't move. I put hundreds of bobby pins lol.

The interviewers were very nice and asked me a lot of questions. I couldn't answer to few of them, but they were comprehensive to the fact that I never had a professional experience before and this internship was my very first one.

The subject of the internship is going to be very technical as they said and it's not what I love the most, but all I want is get an internship and graduate!! Anyways this is another subject I'll probably talk about soon.

But for now I wanted to share the outfit I wore to this interview. See you guys soon inshallah, cause I'm feeling a bit sick in this debut of holidays. Bye bye.

Wish I had a bigger mirror tho :)

GET TO KNOW ME || 100 QUESTIONS NO ONE ASKS

1:Do you sleep with your closet doors open or closed?

Um closed...why will I let it open?

 
2:Do you take the shampoos and conditioner bottles from hotel?

Never.

 
3:Do you sleep with your sheets tucked in or out?

tucked in.

 
4:Have you ever stolen a street sign before?

Uh noo
 
5:Do you like to use post-it notes?

Yesss I love them. I always write insprational quotes on it and stick them in front of me at my desk.

6:Do you cut out coupons but then never use them?

Nope.

7:Would you rather be attacked by a big bear or a swarm of a bees?

Bees I guess.

8:Do you have freckles?

um nope.

9:Do you always smile for pictures?

Not always, like I do silly faces sometimes

10:What is your biggest pet peeve?

I don’t even know what that means lol wait google translator I need you…Um when people are disrespectful like they own the world

11:Do you ever count your steps when you walk?

Uhm no that’s too boring

12:Have you ever peed in the woods?

Yes I guess, when I was little 

13:What about pooped in the woods?

Nooo way! Never! ew

14:Do you ever dance even if theres no music playing?

Ow yeeeah

15:Do you chew your pens and pencils?

No really

16:How many people have you slept with this week?

0+0=0

17:What size is your bed?

Single bed?

18:What is your Song of the week?

Reflection by Fith harmony…..boy I ain’t talking’bout I’m talkingWith OWN reflection!!

19:Is it okay for guys to wear pink?

Uhhhm Yeah I guess, but very light pink then.

20:Do you still watch cartoons?

Of course. My last one Big Hero 6…Best movie EVVERRR

21:Whats your least favorite movie?

I dunno...Hugo Cabret

22:Where would you bury hidden treasure if you had some?

In my closet? Lol so original

23:What do you drink with dinner?

Water.

24:What do you dip a chicken nugget in?

Mayonnaise!! yumy

25:What is your favorite food?

My mom's food ;)

26:What movies could you watch over and over and still love?

Every inspirational movies, positive movies, funny movies, Girls movies…and all that stuff

27:Last person you kissed/kissed you?

My mom..muaah I love my mommy

28:Were you ever a boy/girl scout?

Never

29:Would you ever strip or pose nude in a magazine?

Astaghfiru’llah! jk Never lol

30:When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?

My fictional letter to hogwarts…no I’m lying (I wrote it tho) it was for boring stuff.

31:Can you change the oil on a car?

Nope

32:Ever gotten a speeding ticket?

Nah

33:Ever ran out of gas?

Yess, but I wasn’t driving. And it was scary as heck!!

34:Favorite kind of sandwich?

I’m a food lover, I’m open to anything that tastes good. I can’t choose.

35:Best thing to eat for breakfast?

Cereals, pain au chocolat, orange juice (love orange juice), eggs

36:What is your usual bedtime?

Midnight to 1 am

37:Are you lazy?

Ha I was boooorn lazy

38:When you were a kid, what did you dress up as for Halloween?

Pocahontas and a witch

39:What is your Chinese astrological sign?

Dog! Dragon is cooler tho

40:How many languages can you speak?

Arabic, English, French, I’m working on my German, Korean and Turkish :)

41:Do you have any magazine subscriptions?

Nope... you can find everything on the Internet baby

42:Which are better legos or lincoln logs?

Legos? Not really a big fan of both

43:Are you stubborn?

When I know I’m right yep!!

44:Who is better...Leno or Letterman?

Jimmy Fallon

45:Ever watch soap operas?

Yees

46:Are you afraid of heights?

Um not really

47:Do you sing in the car?

I will sing when I’ll have my own car

48:Do you sing in the shower?

Yep!! Not always tho. I think about life a lot tho

49:Do you dance in the car?

Sometimes.

50:Ever used a gun?

What?

51:Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

In middle school

52:Do you think musicals are cheesy?

I love musicals… High school musical is my bae...and Zac Efron too ;)

53:Is Christmas stressful?

What? Not for meh

54:Ever eat a pierogi?

Whats that?....Oh yes (thanks google).

55:Favorite type of fruit pie?

I don’t really like fruit pies, but I guess apple pie.

56:Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

Fashion designer, Business woman, Film-maker, Singer, Actress, Model…

57:Do you believe in ghosts?

Nope

58:Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

Yesss

59:Take a vitamin daily?

Yes Magnesium, but not daily

60:Wear slippers?

Yep

61:Wear a bath robe?

Um no, I prefer the big toile

62:What do you wear to bed?

Pyjamas?

63:First concert?

Never been to

64:Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

Don't have any of these where I live...but I'll say Target..lol

65:Nike or Adidas?

Nike? I don’t really like big brands which exploits humans

66:Cheetos Or Fritos?

Cheetos.. and cheese flavor please

67:Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

Sunflower seeds...yo I'm arab they mah thang

68:Ever hear of the group Tres Bien?

Never

69:Ever take dance lessons?

From youtube? Yes lol

70:Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

Um not really, but I want him to be interesting, like I’d prefer that he doesn't have a too technical job. I prefer more like artistic job, or maybe in the entrepreneurship…

71:Can you curl your tongue?

Yes

72:Ever won a spelling bee?

Um nope, but I'm good at it

73:Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

Uum no…don’t remember

74:Own any record albums?

No

75:Own a record player?

Why you gotta be so mean?...No :/

76:Regularly burn incense?

my mom does sometimes….but I prefer bkhour

77:Ever been in love?

Not really…I had some crushes but nothing serious… I don’t need boys now!!

78:Who would you like to see in concert?

Uum Yuna. One direction (but I can’t handle the crowd soo I won’t go even if I could), Taylor swift, Demi Lovato…that’s it

79:What was the last concert you saw?

Never been to a concert

80:Hot tea or cold tea?

Cold tea

81:Tea or coffee?

Tea

82:Sugar or snickerdoodles?

Snickerdoodles ..num num

83:Can you swim well?

Hahahahahaha(crying inside)….no….deep water is my nightmare!!

84:Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

Yep

85:Are you patient?

It depends on the person I'm being patient for or the thing

86:DJ or band, at a wedding?

DJ

87:Ever won a contest?

Um,no

88:Ever have plastic surgery?

No I’m perfect lol jk

89:Which are better black or green olives?

Green olives all the way!!

90:Can you knit or crochet?

Nope

91:Best room for a fireplace?

The living room

92:Do you want to get married?

Yes inshallah

93:If married, how long have you been married?

I said I'm Not married

94:Who was your HS crush?

Umm what? ...okk..the little boy (who's not little anymore) I tell you about in the last question ;)

95:Do you cry and throw a fit until you get your own way?

Nope

96:Do you have kids?

Yes 6 kids

97:Do you want kids?

Yes 6 more

98:Whats your favorite color?

Umm I like purple, blue, pastel colors, black

99:Do you miss anyone right now?

Yes my sister and my brother

100: Something that happened to you in middle school? 

My brain memory is sooo weak, that I have no idea. Oh I knooow! I have something funny. Well it was a morning,  I was super late for school (I was in 3rd grade I think), and then when I arrived there was this boy in my group who gave me a card with a baby face on it as a gift, aand I was soo disoriented cause 1) I was late and 2) it’s was the first time that a boy gave me a gift, and I was in my head like whaaat, and then I yelled at the poor boy “LEAAAVE ME ALOOONE” “I DON’T WANT iiiiit” lol. I wish I am the tough girl I was back then haha

Hope you enjoyed reading this tag guuys ;) it’s was quite long tho

Salam xoxo