Don't give up

Whatever the place. Whatever the means. Whatever the time.

One needs to have something to say. One should tell something. Tell a story.

Or else one can believe that its heart died. 

One has to try. Again. Forever. Try. Try. Try.

Because there's hope. Always. There's light. Always.

Let your heart see the light, even when your eyes are blind.

Even when your mind tells you to stop trying. To give up.

Let your heart light up the tunnel you're in. And be the light you want to see.

Be the hero of your book and fly with your own wings.

"Take a chance. Because you never how absolutely perfect something could turn out to be."

Meditation #1

I don't need much. Just lightness. Calm. Peace.
I'm sitting with crossed legs. I meditate. I paint. I breath. I'm calm.
I can smell incense. The curtains are light. I can hear calming sounds. 
I paint. My hand is moving lightly.
I'm at peace. Everything is in harmony.

When I just don't know

picture not mine //source : tumblr

Sometimes I just feel like I wanna cry and I don't even know why. Like I need to cry so then maybe I'll just feel better. Sometimes at night I can't sleep and I don't know why. I start stressing out for no reason and my heart just starts beating faster and it becomes hard to breath correctly. Alhamdulillah I feel better than the last four months now.

I don't know I feel like I'm missing out a lot of things. Like my heart is so full of things that I need to put them out there.
I'm just trying to do some meditation sometimes before I go to sleep or just like listen to calming sounds or Quran to release stress or whatever it is.
I'm naturally a very sensitive person and I'm very bad at controlling/hiding my feelings, emotions.
Yeah that's how it is.

Well I missed blogging here. College has been good to me alhamdulillah, so that's why I guess.

Ok. I think I need to be more creative. I have to work on my unconscious creativeness to see what's going on in here. By here I mean me. My mind, heart and soul.

Thank you for reading, xoxo.